So tonight, I lead our renovare spiritual formation book study. It wasn’t something I chose to do, but rather something God chose for me to do. Our original leader had a death in the family, so could not make it, and our host offered to lead. However, I felt a tug on my spirit that he should not have to since he’d had a chance at leading and the meeting was in his home. Leadership is not something that is easy for me. I tend to be more of a follower. The fact that I have to keep a group of 25 (or more) people on task is daunting for me. That’s the main reason I’m not a teacher right now, I don’t have the control it takes to keep everyone on task, or at least I don’t have the confidence to believe I have the control, so in essence don’t. But God blessed me through the leading tonight and I’m glad I listened to the spirit. Pretty much everyone told me I did a good job and I don’t know whether it’s because they really thought I did a good job, or if they know that leadership is daunting. But it feels good to be complimented in any case. I am going to try to listen to the spirit of God more and take on challenges head on, even if I don’t necessarily feel I have the skills to be excellent. God will meet me where I am.